32-year-old Agata Muceniece admitted that she went through depression as a teenager. The actress faced complexes.

“My huge mistake”: Agata Muceniece fell into a model trap in Milan

32-year-old Agata Muceniece admitted that she went through depression as a teenager. The actress faced complexes.

The star of the historical film Tobol was born and raised in Riga. When Agatha was 16 years old, she began working as a model. This allowed the girl to visit many European countries. Nevertheless, the profession was difficult for the future television personality. The first difficulties awaited her in Milan. Muceniece ended up in a foreign country, she was given a map, a list of castings, two photographs, the keys to the apartment. On the map, Agatha's housing and the modeling agency were marked with a pencil.

“Then the models had 10 castings a day, there was huge competition, the queues went out into the streets. Incredible competition and all the beautiful pictures, as a selection. It was a difficult, difficult test, ”explained the mother of two children. The debut trip did not bring success to Agatha. She became more critical of herself.

“I made zero money in Milan. For the first time in my life, I was faced with the fact that I began to compare myself with others. In terms of height, I am tall for a figure skater, for an actress of normal height. For a model, I'm small. All the girls are meter eighty, everything is like a selection. They didn't take me anywhere. Only in the photo are some and sometimes shows of shoes. I didn’t earn anything but self-doubt, ”explained the performer of the role in the TV series Closed School.

Watching other girls, Agatha thought that she would never become as beautiful as them. The future artist stopped loving herself. “I got into the cycle of self-blame, I began to compare myself with everyone and realized that this was a huge mistake, it began to eat me up from the inside. I started to come in advance to auditions, castings, everywhere, with the full feeling that I, a priori, was worse than everyone who was there. Even a photographer,” smiled the ex-wife of Pavel Priluchny.

As a result, she had to struggle with mental health problems. “I fell into a tough trap, caught a tough depression. I stopped liking Milan itself, I felt terribly bad there, ”said Agatha.

However, the actress was able to find a good side in the situation. The TV star looked at herself in a new way. “Then I had a turnaround. At the moment when I fully understood that I was nothing, I was not destined, a bad mood caught up with me for several weeks. I sat down, lit a cigarette and realized that I would forgive myself for failures, I would go further, try again until I succeeded, ”Mucieniece assured.

She stopped blaming herself for everything. “If they don’t take me everywhere, it doesn’t mean that the problem is with me. I decided for myself that I would forgive myself for such things and understand that you are not bad, but circumstances develop and something good needs to be taken out of them, ”added the artist.